So, most of us, most from 11- 15ish, have a crush, or even in a relationship. Some might say “ew icky” or “oh, yeh.” Sorry this is long. ..
Not too many girl bloggers here (2? 3?) , so you may not relate to this. But just listen.
Some of you may heard about Cesar. Yep. He is in my class of 11. Been knowing him since I was 5. He is very smart, and weird. Been through school with him since Kindergarten. His sister and mine used to be tight, and used to tease us.
We were best friends until 2nd grade. What ruined it?
Our minds to tell the difference between boy and girl. So we separated apart.
In 3rd, he figured that I liked him. Sure I did, but I kept it discreet. People would always want to know the truth, but I refused. I was teased enough already.
4th grade, he starts being a teasy. Makes fun of everything, hates, and just judgemental. I’m a sensitive person, so that hurt me alot. … I always called it “his way of flirting” but I am pretty sure he hates me. -_-
Same goes on till 6th grade. We begin to chat again, and be sorta kinda friends. He’ll still tease me, but smile too. We talked so much that the teacher would try to separate us, but still letting us sit together. I still have that crush.
We almost kissed (eugh) in the library by accident, I was running, looking the other way, while he was running too. So close, that his breath foamed up my glasses. Ran away from each other.
He also got all nasty (won’t get into that) which was … disturbing.
Seventh grade, we are weird. More judgemental, more flirty …
I would get sad everyday from his comments. Worse enough that we share a locker, and sit together.
I would draw about SFs alot too. He would always ask who each person was.
C- So who is this John?
Me- Oh, he makes good origami.
C- oh. Who’s Mega?
Me- He likes folding his own kind of style. We talk alot.
Me- He likes to talk, perky, and just told me something the other day…
(Sorry if it gets you mad that i told him that you were happy.)
C- Gay? Ewwww. I don’t want to know more about these people. *backs away*
Me- Wat? … That’s mean. Plus I think you would like this guy named Moocha-
C- No! Shut up already!
See? He would be all interested, but then turns all rude.
He keeps on asking about you, Matt. I don’t know why. Maybe he is interested in happy ppl? I dunno. Even though I told him that it was a lie, he keeps on asking…
Few months later, he sees my site at Math Club. He kept on asking about people. He saw his name on here though, so I don’t let him see anymoreee.
But today was an important day.
Someone told me to ask him to be my valentine, so I was going to.
Me- Cesar, Coconut, Ima tell you something next Friday.
Me- You’re little secret. Heh.
Cesar- I don’t have any secrets! I swear!! Tell me!
-The Next Day-
Cesar- Tell me!!
Me- Sorry. Gotta wait.
Cesar- I don’t have any secrets. Ask anybody! Ask anything! -_-
Me- Ah, but it is a secret connected to you. It’s been going on for five years.
Cesar- Ugh. You are dumb.
All day, he asked 31 times. No exaggeration. I counted. He seemed really serious, and was blushing alot.
-And The Next Day, Known as Today-
Cesar- Why the 13th?!
Me- It’s close to a day. *Mumbles Saturday*
Cesar- What? WAIT. A holiday! Val-
Cesar- You’re gonna tell me something and ask something!
Me- *blushes* Noooo.
Cesar- *note he is blushing too* Yesssss.
Me- If you know, say it!
Cesar- *his face looks like a tomato now* Nooo! I know!
Cesar- Nooo! D: I won’t say!
Me- Then i won’t say!
*we both stare at each other for a min*
Cesar- 2nd grade. 😀
Me- :O *blushes even more*
Cesar- I knew it!
Me- *sighs* I…
*the whole class quiets down and listens closely*
Cesar- I knew it! You like-
Kid- He was gonna ask you to be his valentine!
Another Kid- Cesar likes you!
Cesar runs away.
*he keeps on saying ” i know your secret”all day*
End of Day
Me- so you… know?
Cesar- That you like me?
Cesar- Yeah. I don’t like you like that though. Sorry.
Me- *gulps* Good. Um.. Bye.
Cesar- Bye, Jess.
It is confusing. He was blushing a whole lot, and people were saying things, but noooo, he said that.
I am totally nervous for school tomorrow. Hopefully he is nicer. What if he reads this… meh. There is #2 of The Life of an Awkward Dorky Person. What do you think? It’s stupid? Move on? Ask him something? Eat a pineapple? Still ask him to be my valentine? Or just don’t do anything?
Comment below your thoughts! I need advice!